Beauty In The Breakdown

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   1. When the Man Comes Around

   This episode is strictly a montage of clips I've found over the past year.  I edited them together to form a pattern of good & evil, God & the devil, belief and unbelief, only for everyone to find encouragement in who God is.

   Sep 11,2023 40:21
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   2. This One Is for the Drinkers in the Back!

   Title says it all! This one is for the drinkers in the back!  I'm trying my best to be loud and clear here; Only speaking out of 100% experience with what I experienced with alcohol concerning myself and others.  Quitting drinking or "drying out" as some like to refer to it, is an absolute nightmare to go through.  It's basically starting over again.  It's throwing away something that's had it grip on you so much that when you decide to stop you have to literally get to know yourself again.  A l

   Sep 04,2023 48:38
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   3. Out of the Worst of Times Come the Best Songs

   Hard times fall on us all.  That is something we always hear, and we are constantly aware of.  But when it actually happens those moments in time seem to drag on and surround us with darkness and pure struggle.  I've spent a ton of time in hospitals this summer with family and friends in support of their needs.  But one that sticks out the most is my friend Charlie who lost the love of his life Miwa.  Charlie is the most amazing person I know, and quite a well-respected mystery at times.  To sum

   Aug 28,2023 23:10
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   4. What Love Is!

   After a long break over the summer, I've returned with quite an emotional episode.  Although my emotions are in check, I've have felt the need to discuss somethings that have been going on in my life that involve some radical change.  Changes that are hard to understand.  Some changes that were made because things just had to go.  But some changes happened due to life throwing its curve balls at us all and we can do nothing but go through it all together.  Throughout all this craziness that's be

   Aug 21,2023 41:35
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   5. Shipwrecked

   A few weeks ago, I was in my daily reading, and I came across the word shipwrecked.  Little did I know that I would live out the feeling of that word on a daily basis.  Life has begun to feel a bit dry, same ole same ole, feeling tired all the time, easily frustrated for almost no reason at all at times.  "Where is the peace that I had?" I would ask myself from time to time.  I felt as though I wasn't' exactly walking in the rest that I have described in some of the previous episodes.  Well as I

   Jun 05,2023 23:20
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   6. On The Road To Realization

   Being brought out of a life of addiction and a consistent downward spiral is quite riveting. As I have shared in the past episodes pieces of my story that allowed me to get on this new path to making things right with God, myself and others, there were still some other things that I still needed to share.  In this episode I dive into some personal struggles of the heart that I faced, finally deciding where I should be planted in a church, and a dream that I had almost 10 years ago that I finally

   May 29,2023 45:05
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   7. The Obedient Servant

   Have you ever received a phone call from someone that uplifted you?  Have you ever witnessed an accident and immediately felt the urge to pray through your inner self or out loud to God or whoever you fancy?  I ponder these things and have a strong desire to grow in this area because I truly believe we bring life to others by lifting others up in prayer.  Praying and sending good thoughts to others is something special and what I believe to be great tools that we all possess.  In this episode I

   May 22,2023 40:16
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   8. The Importance of a Daily Devotional Life

   When pursuing God, I cannot begin to express the importance of a good healthy and most certainly daily devotional life.  I go over some things in this episode that you may have heard of some of the others.  But to really get the direct impact from Gods word and to understand him more, I talk about how there are certain things that are extremely beneficial to get into the routine doing. I also play some clips from some folks giving testimonies of how God has transformed them over time, and I also

   May 15,2023 32:48
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   9. REPENTANCE

   When people hear the word repentance, they often can get pretty triggered.  Whether it's on a billboard on the interstate or some self-righteous person has the audacity to point their grubby finger in someone's face...It all seems a bit damning and dark.  But repentance is actually a great step we can take of coming to God and recognizing the things in our lives that are guiding us the wrong way and give us the proper steps to take for living in a way that pleases God.  There is nothing wrong wi

   May 08,2023 42:39
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    10. FAITH (Put on some God britches and see if they fit).

    I was approached by a friend that told me that "I should do a show on faith."  Although there will be many more shows on the topic, I wanted to expand a bit on a personal story that I have between me and this friend of mine.  We both were put in an extremely difficult situation that was meant for good, seemed awful when the pressure rose, but in the end because of prayer, faith and the goodness of God things really came through for the both of us.  So many of us in life feel backed into a corner

    May 01,2023 44:57
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    11. ACTIONS

    During the stretch of this episode, I touch on some sensitive subjects that may just hit the nerves of some traditional folks in the Church.  I mainly deal with how we think and process things in our minds and then how we choose to turn those things into actions.  The past few episodes have been on what we choose to be our aroma (or vibes as some may say) when we are around others.  Then I moved into thoughts (the battlefield of the mind) and how we deal with ourselves internally.  This episode

    Apr 24,2023 01:05:20
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    12. THOUGHTS (The Big What If’s)

    In this episode I dive into the inner self or as some would call it "The battlefield of the Mind."  I aim to be more self-improving, moving along through life with God on my side while keeping in mind the things that I struggle with on the inside that I feel are always trying to keep me far from living right.   Have self-doubt always surfaces the most when I'm trying to do the right thing.  I call those doubts "The Big What If's."  This battle is very real and it's a continuous thing to deal wit

    Apr 17,2023 38:07
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    13. AROMA

    Have you ever reeked of something?  Maybe you smell like where you've been, but more importantly maybe you reek of how you feel or the way that you're living currently.  Well, you can always tell that someone has had too much to drink sometimes before they even say a word because they reek of alcohol.     But some folks reek of evil, hate, depression, and stress, or joy, peace, and hope.  What is your aroma that flows from your presence?  In this episode I speak of how we go about our lives and

    Apr 10,2023 37:44
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    14. Happy Easter! A short reading from Romans 8.

    I just wanted to spread some joy to you all this Easter Sunday with a short Easter Message.  I hope that you all have a memorable day and may the peace of Jesus give you rest! He has done it!It is Finished!

    Apr 09,2023 09:49
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    15. There is Power in a Name Part 2

    Here is the final episode of a two-part series of There is Power in a Name.  In this episode I go into further detail of my two heroes.  Wrapping out the finishing touches from the first episode about Jesus and how he connects things in my life that really help grow my faith in leaps and bounds.  Then I move into the second hero of mine containing the story of the birth, life and Death of my daughter Evangeline (Lina) Joy Ray.  It's such a powerful story.  Our names can truly be what define us a

    Apr 03,2023 50:11
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    16. There is Power in a Name Part 1

    I recently felt moved to do a two-part series called "There Is Power In A Name."  Reason being is because I have two heroes for many magnificent reasons, and I also have some strange stories that explain why these two heroes of mine exist.  These stories have helped develop my faith a long time ago and also just as much today.  This show (or series of shows) is built on the verses of James 1:2-4.  Enjoy!

    Mar 27,2023 41:28
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    17. Is Jesus Just Your Janitor?

    In this episode I dig a little deeper into pursuing God using the verses of Philippians 4:6-7.  I play clips of people I'm finding on TikTok as well as clips of my pastors' sermon that are strongly connected to pieces and memories of my life that I needed to fit together.  I needed to fit these pieces together to find and understand the deeper things of God that allow me to walk with him daily and understand that he's always there.  From the Janitor at my elementary school way way back in the da

    Mar 20,2023 54:44
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    18. Be Strong and Do the Work

    In this episode I dive into the word just a bit heavier than I have been doing in the past.  The point of the episode is bringing into action the part of the verse in 1chronicles 29:10 where it says "Be Strong and Do the Work.  I tell stories of personal recent encounters I've had as well as others that are really motivating me to become a better person in regard to being sensitive to the things of God.  I also dive into the importance of personal devotion and prayer which is a simple task when

    Mar 13,2023 36:25
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    19. Doing Small Things with Big Love

    Doing what is right for others and for yourself is important.  Tons of people everywhere are posting things concerning some type of an awakening that is happening everywhere spiritually.  Whether it be through the Asbury revival, surrendering to God personally, entering a life of sobriety, or coming out of hard times.  In this episode I share more of my story through sobriety and my experience of extreme loss and gain in my life.  I also mention that people are starting to listen to each other,

    Mar 06,2023 29:37
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    20. This God thing is why I’m doing this

    Title says it all, folks.  On this very first episode of beauty and the breakdown I play example clips from the currently happening Asbury Revival.  I play them to set an example of what God is really doing when you truly seek him.  He is good and his love endures forever.

    Feb 27,2023 31:04
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    21. The Introduction

    This is the intro episode into a continuing series of podcasts meant to lift up those that are discouraged and beaten down by everyday life.  We all go through hard times.  Some face the challenges of the loss of a loved one, addiction, suicide, depression, anxiety, anger, sadness, and even loneliness.  But there is a hope that is available to us all that is eternally sustaining and ever present.  Please join me on this adventure in the pursuit of peace, as we unravel ourselves from sadness and

    Feb 21,2023 18:58