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   1. S1:E27 - [KYLIE'S STORY] All Bark. No Bite.

   Dear Listeners,In this episode, Kylie opens up about what drove her to be part of The Dichotomy Diaries podcast as we reflect on our shared experiences with relationships.Join me as Kylie Brocato bravely shares her story about dating Dick, a man with a violent criminal history. What started with attraction and compliments soon turned into a nightmare of verbal abuse, manipulation, and attempts to disrupt her co-parenting relationship.Despite the chaos, Kylie’s strength shone through, and she ult

   May 18,2024 01:24:37
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   2. S1:E26 - [ROHANNA'S STORY] Never Been Pro

   Dear Listeners,In this deep and insightful conversation, Rohanna and I explore Rohanna’s multifaceted life experiences, touching on her early life on Whidbey Island, her journey through homeschooling, and her early marriage. Rohanna also shares about her collaborative natural body care business with her mom in the Pacific Northwest, and the beauty of living near the orcas.The conversation shifts to more personal themes, delving into Rohanna’s past narcissistic relationship with you guessed it...

   May 02,2024 01:43:20
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   3. S1:E25 - [JOANNA'S STORY] Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 2

   Dear Listeners, In this segment of the conversation, Joanna and Amanda delve into the intricate dynamics of Joanna's relationship with her ex-partner, Dick.They explore Dick's isolated lifestyle, his fixation on fitness and steroid use, as well as his troubling control over Joanna's diet and body image. Furthermore, they shed light on his neglectful behavior as a father to his daughter.The discussion also touches upon Dick's manipulative tactics, including his skillful redirection during argumen

   Apr 26,2024 01:11:18
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   4. S1:E24 - [JOANNA'S STORY] Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 1

   Dear Listeners, In this compelling episode, Amanda sits down with Joanna to delve into her personal journey with a former partner who, coincidentally, they both know.Joanna candidly shares the story of their meeting, the subtle early signs of manipulation she noticed, and the profound impact it had on her life.Both Amanda and Joanna hope that by sharing this story, it will provide solace to others and illuminate the realities of narcissistic abuse. They explore the characteristics of women often

   Apr 17,2024 01:22:44
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   5. S1:B2 - [BONUS] Total Eclipse of the Heart

   Dear Diary (& Loyal Listeners), Today's solar eclipse reminds us of the beauty that can be found in life's uncertainties, prompting a brief ONE WEEK hiatus for The Dichotomy Diaries.(I KNOWWWWWWW)I'm grappling with personal challenges, including family matters and financial stress to the MAX. I feel guilty for deviating from our schedule, trust me. However, quality remains paramount as we anticipate new global listeners via a very exciting opportunity. During this brief break, I'll address these

   Apr 09,2024 09:30
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   6. S1:E23 - A Lil' Update

   Dear Diary (& Listeners),  Per your request, I have chosen to break up the interviews with solo update episodes.  Here is a fun update. Well- fun in terms of entertainment I guess.  What you'll hear today had me shook.  Thanks for letting me share and be vulnerable with you. I am forever grateful... Forever Speaking My Truth,Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please emai

   Mar 26,2024 41:22
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   7. S1:E22 - [KYLE'S STORY] For The Plot: Part 2

   Dear Diary (& Listeners),We're back with Kyle for Part Two!  I want to extend my greatest gratitude out to Kyle for sharing his story with us.  It was so wonderful to hear from another person with similar experiences. This validates me in my truth and I hope so many more of you in your own.  I know you've waited alllll day.  So here you go. Let's get to it! VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Forever Speaking My Truth,Amanda Arnier, MLS If you have experienced anything similar and would like

   Mar 20,2024 01:08:37
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   8. S1:E21 - [KYLE'S STORY] For The Plot: Part 1

   Dear Diary (& Listeners),You are now entering the part of The Dichotomy Diaries I like to refer to as...THE INTERVIEWSEveryone you will hear from, from this point forward is someone who had a first hand relationship with the monster that I married. What my guests will be sharing will be FACTUAL, raw, and chronological. You will also get an opportunity to ask guests of The Dichotomy Diaries questions in between the different parts of their episodes...Please submit your questions in a DM on @TheDi

   Mar 12,2024 01:05:19
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   9. S1:E20 - Beyond The Rainbow

   Dear Diary (& Listeners), We made it! We survived. VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought.  This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story.  And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER..  The next part of The Dichotomy Diaries Season One has one main focus…To help others share their truth,

   Mar 05,2024 51:09
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    10. S1:E19 - This Fuggin' Guy

    Dear Diary (& Listeners), Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story.  We've been on a wild ride together.  But you know what...? There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with.  Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste... This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended. Yep. This is the one.  I won't keep you waiting.  Just please, don't forget. One day, you wake up...and it just doesn't hurt anymo

    Feb 27,2024 59:58
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    11. S1:E18 - With Liberty & Justice for All

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed.Did I get the justice I deserved?Not at all.My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies.But does it matter in the grand scheme of things?Also -Nope.Why?Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you.That feels like a win to me. In Episode 18, I'll give you a quick rundown of my messy divorce court saga and share how I celebrated my

    Feb 20,2024 01:23:02
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    12. S1:E17 - Creampie Confessions

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),Stress has taught me a lot this year. I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating. I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price. I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself.  So what do we do with this information? Well- we learn of course. We learn how to manage our stress levels. We

    Feb 06,2024 01:25:47
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    13. S1:E16 - Bang, Bang

    Dear Diary (& Listeners), You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness?Yeah...Me too.This is where I am this week.After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened. I got sick. And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold.Bang, Bang.  I hit the ground. Today is the first day in almost a week that I am able to get out of bed and do life. So tha

    Feb 01,2024 54:45
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    14. S1:E15 - Behoove This

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),The flood gates are open and the reflective thoughts are pouring in.  Values. I've been talking a lot about family lately, but what about unique values I desire in a man? I know you'll be shocked to know...(sarcasm) that every single one of these unique values are dead opposite of Dick.  It feels good to think for myself again. I finally have my present and future back. Le Sigh... Now I just need to sleep more.  Here's a few Unique Qualities I pulled from a list I wrote

    Jan 24,2024 48:47
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    15. S1:E14 - Divina Commedia

    Dear Diary (& Listeners), This episode is a total standout for me. I hardly ever get to geek out about Italian Literature and why it means so much to me. This week, I had this awesome "aha" moment while chatting about my absolute favorite piece of literature. But hold on tight, 'cause things take a wild turn. We're talking a whopping $14k in medical bills, I manage to rip a door clean off its hinges (yeah, that happened), and guess what? Homelessness decided to make a guest appearance in my life

    Jan 18,2024 01:29:17
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    16. S1:E13 - Make a Wish

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),  I want to start off by saying Thank You. The Dichotomy Diaries has jumped insane numbers this past week and I have you all to thank for that.  Episode 13 starts off with an overview...and maybe a little sneak peek. The point that we are at in this story is went mentally things all go down hill for me.  Naturally, this is taxing, but when I tell you it is C O M P L E T E L Y necessary- I mean it.  I am constantly questioned on why I would choose to sit with the bad deci

    Jan 10,2024 48:50
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    17. S1:E12 - Butterfly Language

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),As I sit here today writing this, it is January 1st, 2024.  A New Year always brings reflection.  I can't help but think about where I was on this exact day last year.  I remember waking up in an empty bed.  I always enjoyed waking up and having the first view of my day be my husbands face. This day was different. The night prior I had felt like we were a team. He was leading with WE. He had outwardly demonstrated what I had been asking for, for so long.  And yet here I

    Jan 02,2024 01:19:08
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    18. S1:E11 - Method Acting

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),We all strive to be the best at something.  For me, it was being a wife, a partner, a team member. For others it might be more career oriented or status driven.  Not for me.  I've known as long as I can remember that I wanted to be a wife, a mother, and right hand to a fearless teammate who strives for greatness in life.  I've thought about this a lot this past week because as I try to be the best version of myself; I find that I fall short in a lot of areas I once thoug

    Dec 28,2023 01:14:31
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    19. S1:E10 - The House Always Wins

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),There is so much I want to say.   Today I reflect on the fact that this is the TENTH episode of The Dichotomy Diaries...TEN?!I was so scared to release the TRAILER you guys...I remember recording it over and over again. On my IPHONE of all devices. Something inside of me knew that this was exactly what I needed to heal, find purpose, and remember the feeling of self-love. With Christmas right around the corner, I feel more emotional than usual.  I am so PROUD of myself. 

    Dec 19,2023 01:39:29
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    20. S1:E9 - Wined, Dined, and Sixty-Nined

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),  S U R P R I S E! You've waited patiently. So without further adeiu... I'd like to introduce you to Kyle.  Kyle is a past client, friend, and confidante of Dick. He is going to take us to school today on ALL THINGS FINDOM & Taboo.He will answer some of your most asked questions...and give you a look inside what it meant to know Dick, as an openly gay male client. AND. It's GOOOOOOD. Juicy. Spicy. The Tea Kettle is Whistling BayBEE.  One thought I'd like to leave you wit

    Dec 12,2023 45:06
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    21. S1:E8 - Mama Tried

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),I am stressed this week. I have so many things going at once. The holidays crept up and I feel like I am burning the candle at both ends. I've found myself in a strange lull because of the holidays. Everywhere I look someone is experiencing joy and new beginnings. I held space for myself for a moment, but didn't let it get the best of me. Between family, friends, and Italian Batman- there is so much potential, positivity, and love in my life right now. Thats why this wee

    Dec 05,2023 02:14:25
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    22. S1:E7 - Rocky-Road Trip

    Dear Diary (& Listeners), You know the saying "If you don't use it, you lose it"... First off, I want to go on the record and call BULLSHIT. Why? I'm glad you asked!  When I first met Dick, he was entranced with my brain. He loved the way I thought, spoke, and saw the world. He would tell me, even as recent as June of 2023- that I was the smartest woman he had ever met. I ate that shit up. As our relationship progressed, it seemed that the very thing he loved so much about me, threatened him. He

    Nov 27,2023 01:35:48
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    23. S1:E6 - Vanished in Happy Jack

    NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality.Dear Diary (& Listeners),There's a theme this week. We Teach People How To Treat Us.And while yes, what I taught Dick our entire relationship was that he could walk all over me...My lesson plan is a little different now. Boundaries are difficult for so m

    Nov 21,2023 01:52:32
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    24. S1:E5 - Sergeant Steroids

    NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality.Dear Diary (& Listeners),When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking. You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished. I did some shit I

    Nov 15,2023 01:57:49
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    25. S1:E4 - Promises, Panic & Poppers

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),I cried recording part of this episode.  And it got me thinking...Why did THIS episode make me cry?What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears? You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad... I know the answer. This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing in the studio because right then; I felt as if I may

    Oct 31,2023 01:08:51
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    26. S1:B1 - [BONUS] Q&A Surprise!

    Surprise!I had fun answering all your questions. Can’t wait for Tuesday! See you there,Amanda

    Oct 28,2023 59:16
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    27. S1:E3 - Electric Daisy Abandonment

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"?After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot.The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding.There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like I a

    Oct 31,2023 01:22:38
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    28. S1:E2 - Shroom Things & Wedding Rings

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),I had a profound realization this week. It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss. Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness. How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return?Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him?Was I actually loving him?And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love- is by experie

    Oct 17,2023 01:24:08
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    29. S1:E1 - The Sin City Serpent

    Dear Diary (& Listeners),There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one. The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other. Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you. How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of some

    Oct 10,2023 01:34:10
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    30. Official Trailer

    The Official Trailer for The Dichotomy Diaries premiering October 10th, 2023. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miuraTikTok: @TheDichotomyDiariesFacebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries 

    Sep 18,2023 07:06
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    31. Sneak Peek #2

    Here is your first taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miuraTikTok: @TheDichotomyDiariesFacebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries

    Sep 17,2023 01:48
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    32. Sneak Peek #1

    A Sneak Peek at what is to come. Here is your first taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miuraTikTok: @TheDichotomyDiariesFacebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries

    Sep 16,2023 03:52